I don’t know when it hit me, but this morning I woke up a little like . I had a revelation and it didn’t make me very happy. I realized that I can’t be everything for everybody. I realized that I can’t help everyone. I realized that everyone can’t always depend on me for their happiness. I realized that I’m just one person. And that folks, is a bummer.
I want to help everyone. I want to be the source of sunshine for everyone around me. If I have it, I want you to have it too because that’s just how I am, but I can’t always do that. Sometimes you just have to look out for yourself and that doesn’t mean you don’t care what other people are going through, it just means that if you aren’t good, you can’t be good for anyone else.
Have you ever felt bad because you didn’t have what someone needed, physically, emotionally, financially? Well that’s me. I’m a giver and that is a gift and a curse, but I’ve come to realize that if I can’t do for someone( in any aspect) that I can’t beat myself up about it.
I can’t change who or how I am but I can try to learn to be easier on myself. I have to.