I’m never going to be one of those bloggers who pretends their life is full of sunshine and roses. I’ll never be someone who doesn’t “Keep it real” pretty much all the time. I’ll never be someone who cares too much what anyone else thinks about me and I’ll never be someone who pretends to have all the answers. I say all that to say, life is hard sometimes!
I’m a Sagittarius woman so by nature I am a very emotional person. That doesn’t mean I sit around crying about everything ( although I will get my cry on if I need to, I’m not afraid) it just means that I FEEL everything! I love hard and because of that, I don’t give up on it very easily. If I want something, I will fight for it if I have to.
My current relationship, I’ve been fighting for it for years now. From local to long distance and back again. It’s been a struggle for me mostly emotionally because I am someone who NEEDS physical affection and when someone is gone, it’s pretty hard to get that. And I’m not talking only about sex because of course that’s included but I NEED the person I am with to be physically present a lot of the time. To be with someone who struggles with feeling inadequate and unworthy sometimes can put a strain on a relationship.
REAL men by nature want to be the provider and the protector. When a man feels like he isn’t playing his role correctly they will, at times pull away from the relationship or act out in ways that aren’t typical of them. The latter is what I am experiencing now. and I really don’t know how to deal with it exactly.
You can tell a person until you’re blue in the face that you don’t need their money, just their time. But if they don’t feel that way, your words won’t matter. If all their previously relationships placed importance on how much he brought to the table then that’s how he will think things work not understanding that his current woman isn’t like any of those past girls.
Please pray for my. . . our strength and sanity as we navigate through this rough path. It’s worth it to me to put forth effort because I’ve already invested a lot of time.